"There are 30 million desirable women in the US (my estimate) and I cannot find one"

His anger stemmed from unfulfilled desire: The women at his gym “look so beautiful as to not be human,” he wrote. He complained that women “don’t even give me a second look ANYWHERE” even though he was tan and fit and claimed to dress well and smell nice.

He listed his status as “Never married.” In a chilling addition, he recorded the date of his death as Aug. 4, 2009.