Bud Light has lost over $400 million in sales since teaming up with the transgender influencer Dylan Mulvaney for a partnership back in April. Now, Mulvaney is speaking out to admit that she “feels guilty” over the backlash Bud Light has received since the brand celebrated her first full year of “girlhood” by putting her face on a can.

“I think this has affected a lot more lives than obviously just mine. I always want to add value in any partnership that I do,” Mulvaney, 26, told The Cut.

“Part of me was concerned with my well-being, how to keep myself safe, how to keep myself out of a courtroom, how to keep myself successful,” the influencer continued. “And part of me was concerned with being a good person: How do I show up for the trans community right now in a way that I feel like I really can?”