“He internalized things. He said it was the worst day of his life."

The psychiatrist, hired by a lawyer for Jeffrey’s estate, was examining whether the injuries Jeffrey suffered on Jan. 6 had caused his death. Erin didn’t know precisely what her husband had gone through on Jan. 6; the couple had a general understanding that they wouldn’t get into too many specifics about his police work. But from what he did share, it was awful.

“He internalized things. He said it was the worst day of his life,” Erin told the psychiatrist. “He said, you train all the time but it’s different when you experience it. I’d never seen him that way before. He was extremely even tempered. He was very calm about everything.”…

Erin couldn’t stop thinking about what actually happened to her husband that day, and how it changed the man she knew as a fun-loving jokester who was always dancing around the house. Footage of Jan. 6 was wall-to-wall on cable news, but it yielded no clues about what Jeffrey saw and did ― nor about what was done to him. Amid a massive investigation into the Jan. 6 attack, the officer’s widow was being stonewalled by the Metropolitan Police Department, which did not release Jeffrey’s body camera footage after his death.

With the help of some of the online sleuths investigating the Jan. 6 attack, however, she soon learned more about what happened. Online investigators, working under the name Deep State Dogs, were able to find Jeffrey amid the mob.