She writes in her book “Becoming” that the celebratory feel during her husband’s two inaugurations was gone when Trump was sworn into office in Jan. 2017.

“Someone from Barack’s administration might have said that the optics there were bad, that what the public saw didn’t reflect the president’s reality or ideals, ” she wrote, according to ABC. “But in this case, maybe it did.”

“Realizing it, I made my own optic adjustment,” she continued. “I stopped even trying to smile.”