Life after the Medal of Honor

BVR: As far as your own reintegration, I know that your book goes into some of the problems you had, even to the point of a suicide attempt that you called your rock bottom. What drove you to that point, and what changed, afterward?

DM: That’s what most guys have is the guilt, the frustration, the anger of what happened over there. Guys you lost, brothers and sisters that fell over there next to you, and you made it home. Just the guilt of it. Knowing that you’ll never be able to talk to them again. Knowing that in one day you lost everything you cared about. I told myself, when I heard the drop of the hammer, look. If you really want to go this route, rack the gun again, put a bullet in it, and do it, if it’s that bad. If it’s not, if you drive off from this place, don’t ever look back and do it again, and go make a difference.