"Pretending has always been a part of me"

“Pretending has always been a part of me,” Sandusky, now 67, wrote in his autobiography, “Touched: The Jerry Sandusky Story,” published in 2000. “I’ve loved trying to do the right things to hopefully make a difference in kids’ lives and maybe make things better off for them. I’ll never regret being called a ‘great’ pretender.”…

In his book, Sandusky describes an exchange with a defiant boy in a psychiatric facility — a child who initially welcomed his visits but grew cold toward him.

“You know, it’s not right to treat people like this,” Sandusky says he told the boy. “You should talk to me.” He adds that the boy “laid into me, screaming from the top of his lungs, ‘Get out of here! Get out of here!'”

In other sections, the former coach writes of wrestling, hugging and swimming with boys.